Alone... Time for a change
So, I am going to make this blog to give me a place to VENT and to PROCESS the things that I want to talk about. I hope this all goes well and that I can use this as a way to express myself. I know that there are people who care about me and who want me to do well but honestly I feel ALONE. I have spent over 1 yr in my basement working every day trying to grow my business and I spend hour after hour alone without anyone to talk with.
I… ya know I think I would feel different if I were working in an office and able to see people a little. Just being able to say hello to someone and have a face to face interaction would feel so Refreshing! Ya know?…
Anyways, don’t get me wrong, I LOVE what I do for work. I love being creative and solving problems. I just need a friend. I have friends I barely even speak with. I have a buddy in Mexico that I speak with more than the friends here in the USA. Lately, I have gotten sick of being the one who always reaches out and has to work on being the friend to others. WHY IS IT NOT EQUAL?
Anyways, as you can tell, I am slightly bitter about how it is all going with my social life. I have a spouse and kids and my kids are for sure my best friends. love hugging them and seeing them and I hope to do that more. If it were not for my children, I am sure my loneliness would be a lot worst. Just thinking about my kids now makes me feel the burden of being alone is going away. I just feel guilty if I am not working as many hours as I do.
As you can tell I have a lot of stuff I need to work out. For one thing, I need to find a HOBBY that my kids can do with me that’s FUN!
We will see how this goes. I am pretty monotone but we will see if I can be entertaining enough for you. LOL
Thanks for taking the time…